Standing at the Crossroads

I entered the clergy exploration process because I felt like I was supposed to do something more than I had been doing.

I moved on to the candidacy program and prepared for school because I felt I needed more training and education to improve the work I had been doing with youth ministries.

Someone recently observed that it seamed like I was looking for something and someone pointed out an open spot on a ferris wheel and I started going around.

I worked with youth and wanted to do more.

I got "educated" and worked with youth and young adults.

Then someone made some decisions and I was moved off to be an associated pastor.

Then other people made decisions and decided I could be a children's minister. I kept saying I did not think I could be a children's minister. They must have thought I was trying to trick them. The more I protested, the deeper into children's ministry they pushed me.

"I can't swim" I shouted.
"Sure you can." they said. "We will throw you in the deep end and you will have to learn to swim. We will hold your head under the water and you will have to learn to get to the surface."

Just when I thought was going to really drown, I jumped out and found myself at an intersection. I asked friends which way they thought I should go.

None of the people who know me best thought I should jump back in the children's ministry pool.

Funny - none of the people who know me best suggested I jump into youth ministry.

One person seems to think I should just get off the ferris wheel.

(I realize this is a crazy place if I am on a ferris wheel in a pool at an intersection. But this is my story and it feels that crazy right now.)

So I am standing here trying to figure out which way to go.

I'll let you know when I figure it out.